Tuesday, 9 June 2015
This is the worst time of my life.My darling wife died on the eighteenth of May after at least eight months of suffering from cancer, her third fight against this awful illness.My daughter and sons loved her, She was my life and everywhere I look, everywhere I go, I am reminded of her. As I write this , that awful weight of sadness creeps over me so I must stop. It is wonderful when you meet and fall in love with that right person but it is an awful price to pay when you have to say goodbye.
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Words can't describe how sorry i feel. I am not newly married (9 years) but i can't imagine what life would be with out my other half. I do envy the lot of memories you must have had with her, and hope to get to have at least that many meself... and in those she will live on as long as you do. Please know that you and your beloved wife are in my daily prayers.
Gabe
Thankyou Gabe, it is a very difficult time for me , I didn't want to live without her and I cry every day but I think there is light at the end of the tunnel. Best wishes , Mick.
many times of late you have been in my thoughts... i hope time has started to transform the bitterness of the fact into fond recollections of the past as well as the anticipation of an eventual rendezvous in a better place... please remember you are in my prayers.
Gabriel
Thankyou for that Gabe, unfortunately my battle goes on ,I am emotionally exhausted. If it was not for my real friends and neighbours,I would be dead now and with my darling Kathy. I can't forget her and her typical courage, her love for everyone and her refusal to denigrate . I'm seeing my doctor this afternoon and hope to get anti depressants . I'm going to get drunk this evening and on my birthday on Thursday and after that I am giving up.
Mick... it pains me to hear you say such things. I have never personally met you or your beloved wife, but im sure she never would have wanted you to say "i am giving up"... I can assure you that in marriage we are seen as bastions of strenght (even if we may not actually be...) and that our spouses rejoice to believe that we are what held us together. She may not be here to tell you this, but i can say with complete certainty that she would want you to live and still enjoy life 'til your final moment, and in this time think of her and be glad about the wonderful times you had together... Be strong mate, she knows that at the end you'll be together again and this time, forever.
I will wish you a happy birthday, and hope many more to come. And i will not tell you not to drink, but do so in merriment and to the memory of love that was, is, and will always be...
please keep in touch.
your friend,
Gabriel
Hello Gabriel, I'm finding an anti depressant helpful. On thursday, I might buy a lurcher dog for company. It is the last of a litter of five and is rough coated , sixteen weeks old and probably about 25 inches at the shoulder when grown. As it is the last to go , it will probably be very ugly!
I am glad to hear from you, my friend. It gives me peace to know the medication is helping... A lurcher!!! great!, now you are going to have a hunting dog. On the days you are stressed you can take your air rifle out and your dog and go have a field day.
PS: ugly dogs are always the best... God knows mine is an ugly mutt!!! If i dont talk to you before that, I hope you a merry Christmas.
Gabriel
Im sorry i sent that by accident while my daughter's account was signed on... should have come from mine...
Gabriel
Mick its been quite a while since i we last heard from you... I hope you are better. I still surf through your blogs to find solace in this trying times. I wish i could provide some for you, but all i have is my prayers and thoughts. its not much, but they are heartfelt...
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